- Monday, March 03, 2003
error message & its complications
Ugh. Definitely there's something wrong with enetation comment box :( kaga bisa di access dan ada warning error msg segala, something about "SQL server line not working" yadda yadda.... *hmphh!* norak deh, padahal tadi masih masih jalan.
Udah sampe ngeliat ke forumnya segala, egh ternyata ada users laen juga yg ngalamin hal yg sama. So, untuk sementara comment box-nya istirahat deh.
Eniweis, tadi lagi beres2in inbox email, eh ketemu ada satu imel fwd dari si 'okir' yg isinya lumayan cukup menghibur dan ngingetin gue ttg God's endless love. Isi emailnya begini:
Subject: God doesn't give up.
How do I know God is with me? What if this is all a hoax? How do you know that is God who is speaking?
The thick and dreadful darkness of doubt. The same darkness you feel when you sit on a polished pew in a funeral chapel and listen to the obituary of the one you love more than life. The same darkness that you feel when you hear the words, �The tumor is malignant. We have to operate.� The same darkness that falls upon you when you realize you just lost your temper.. . again. The same darkness you feel when you realize that the divorce you never wanted is final. The same darkness into which Jesus screamed, �My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Appropriate words. For when we doubt, God seems very far away. Which is exactly why he chose to draw so near. Throughout time, though God�s people often forgot their God, God didn�t forget them. He kept His word. God didn�t give up. He never gives up. When Joseph was dropped into a pit by his own brothers, God didn�t give up. He could have given up. He could have turned his back. He could have walked away from the wretched mess, but he didn�t. He didn�t give up.
When he became flesh and was the victim of an assassination attempt before he was two years old, he didn�t give up. When the people from his own home town tried to push him over a cliff; he didn�t give up. When his brothers ridiculed him, he didn�t give up. When he was accused of blaspheming God by people who didn�t fear God, he didn�t give up. When Peter worshiped him at the supper and cursed him at the fire, he didn�t give up. When people spat in his face, he didn�t spit back. When the bystanders slapped him, he didn�t slap them. When a whip ripped his sides, he didn�t turn and command the awaiting angels to stuff that whip down that soldier�s throat.
And when human hands fastened the divine hands to a cross with spikes, it wasn�t the soldiers who held the hands of Jesus steady. It was God who held them steady. For those wounded hands were the same invisible hands that had carried the firepot and the torch two thousand years earlier. They were the same hands that had brought light into Abram�s thick and dreadful darkness. They had come to do it again.
So, the next time doubt walks in, escort him out. Out to the hill. Out to Calvary. Out to the cross where, with holy blood, the hand that carried the flame wrote the promise, �God would give up his only son before he�d give up on you.�
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pernah gak kita ngerasa putus asa dan galau sampe kadang ga tau galaunya tuch sebenernya gara2 apa sih?
Blakangan hari ini emang gue suka mikir, "duh, kalo yg ini gak dikabulin, trus gimana...? what am I supposed to do next?." Dari imel ini, gue yakin temen gue yg satu ini pengen ingetin lagi, kalo meskipun seringkali gue merasa putus harapan, tapi ada Someone out there, yg gak pernah ninggalin kita. Whether you know it, or you don't, He's always there next to you dan gak pernah give up on you. Kadang keadaan emang susah banget buat kita merasa hepi, dikala lagi pengen galau atau resah atau gelisah *
susah emang susah buanget. gue sendiri belon expert on this, and I don't think I've ever will. Just I guess that what FaiTH supposed to be. Faith without action is useless, so... show your gratefulness that He is still in control of your life.
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